Fundraiser T-Shirts!!

Hey Friends and Followers!

Want to be my best friend??? Purchase a  T-shirt to help support our JDRF walk team-Team ConMan! You will also be helping spread awareness for Type 1 Diabetes as well as a percentage of the proceeds of every shirt will go directly to JDRF! Win, win, WIN! Not to mention you get a pretty cool shirt to wear! Special shout out and thanks to our wonderful friend (who happens to be the best graphic designer I know!) Kat Lange for designing our shirt! You can find all of her amazing work on her website-www.katlange.com.

Here is the link for ADULT sizes-You can choose either Men or Women’s sizes: www.teespring.com/teamconmanadultsizes front

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Here is the link for YOUTH sizes-www.teespring.com/teamconmanyouth

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OR if you want to just be amazing and donate straight to our team or if you want to walk with us on November 9th-here is the link to our walk page-www2.jdrf.org/goto/teamconman

You guys ROCK!! We could not do this without your support!

Please note that these shirts will only be on sale for 6 more days!!

P.S. Every shirt purchased or donation made will get you a high five, a hug or maybe even a KISS from the one and only ConMan himself! 🙂

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JDRF Walk-FAQs

Hello everyone!

It has been a crazy few months around here, but I’m going to try to be better about posting. 🙂

Exciting news! Team ConMan is back for another JDRF walk to raise money and awareness for type 1 diabetes! I have had a few questions about this walk and it made me realize that there really isn’t that much information and almost all charity walks are different so, I’m going to try to help answer some of my FAQs right here in one convenient spot!

Q: Does it cost anything to sign up?

A: Nope! Not at all! Completely free! And if you share on any social media that you joined this walk-maybe one of your friends or family members will donate or do research on T1D and BAM! You just helped our cause! And it was virtually painless. 😉

Q: If I sign up am I required to go?

A: Absolutely not! We would love to see everyone’s beautiful faces there but things come up, there are emergencies and you can’t make it. Believe me-we understand! Or if you live out of town-be a virtual walker! See above answer for reason to sign up even if you can’t walk with us. 🙂

Q: Are children allowed?

A: Absolutely they are!! We will have our two little monsters (affectionately called of course) with us! What would Team ConMan be without the ConMan himself!? It is a 5K walk so if your little one needs a stroller, definitely bring one which leads me to my next question-

Q: Do we HAVE to walk/run the whole 5K?

A: We have only been to one walk before this but I say-No! You are not required to actually walk or run the 5K. It’s just more about support of the team and our cause. Plus there are vendors and fun events to enjoy and some of your favorite people will be there of course. 😉 This is supposed to be fun-not miserable. 😉

Q: Where and when?

A: The morning of Sunday, November 9th at Angel’s Stadium in Anaheim. I’ll have more details when it gets closer.

Ironically, this date marks Con’s 2 year “diversary.” He has been living with Diabetes for almost 2 years. Let’s try to make this his last, huh!?

Q: Where do we sign up!?

A: Right here! http://www2.jdrf.org/goto/teamconman Click on JOIN TEAM. It’s pretty user friendly but if you need help-please let me know!

Also if there are any other questions-I am happy to help! Just ask!

I hope to see old faces and new faces and friends and family and everyone possible to come out and show support for our great team!!! We were overwhelmed with love and support last year when we did our first JDRF walk and I know this walk is not going to be any different! We have the greatest friends and family out there! Thank you all for your support and love! Let’s make a difference!

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Big Day Yesterday!

Con had a big day yesterday!! He turned FOUR years old!! Crazy. He found his Captain America costume and asked me if he could wear it and of course I said YES! He wore it when we took his big brother to school, when we went to breakfast and even to his endocrinologist appointment. 🙂 Then I think he got hot and wanted to take it off. Haha! Sure we got some strange looks and a few comments but you know what? He was so happy! Which made me happy, and he is already a super hero in my eyes so why not have him dress the part?

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Because even Captain America has to go to the doctor. 😉

Speaking of the doctor appointment…

Turns out we have been letting his blood sugar get too high over the past few months. His A1C was 9.5. 😦 That means that his average blood sugar was 225. (The doctor wants him to be between 90-180 so an A1C of 7.5-8.5) I’m still learning, but my understanding is that an A1C is a blood test that pulls the glucose from the blood and can give an accurate average of the blood sugar for the past 3 months. Blood Glucose Meters (what we use to check his blood sugar at least 6 times a day) are not 100% accurate. They have a “fudge factor” of around 20%. Although, the nurse plugs in his meter and prints out ALL of the readings on it for the last month and it averages them out (among other averages and numbers that it computes and prints) and his meter said his average was around 221. So his is not too completely off. Anyway, to put it in a little bit of perspective-his A1C when he was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes was 10.7. Hopefully the highest he will ever be. His last A1C was 8.1.

This is hard for me to admit, I don’t like to admit failure, but we did kind of fail him. I realize that it could have been much worse. I get that. But we can make it much better and we will. I also know that we are doing our “best” although I don’t believe that either. I have noticed myself getting more lax with him and his eating and that is unacceptable. I need to be more accountable for him. Which is more or less what the doctor said. So now I am on “probation” (not really but that is what I call it 😉 ) and have to check in with his doctor at least every two weeks. I have to give him all of his logs where we record what he is eating, activity levels and blood sugar levels. This is not a bad thing. It is something that I should have been doing all along.

The blessing from all of this is that his endocrinologist team is FINALLY taking us seriously about wanting the insulin pump. 🙂

So, he goes back to the doctor in May and hopefully we can get the ball rolling and I can get some help with this being a pancreas thing! 😉 I wanted to wait until over summer to start him on it because it is going to be a HUGE change and one that I don’t really want to start while he is still in school. I don’t like change, but this is one change that I am more than willing to make for him. ❤

You never need it, until you NEED it…

A couple weeks ago I was going through Con’s medical supplies to see what we needed to refill and happened to check his Glucagon Kit. I do not check it very often. In fact I try to not even look at it at all. It stays in his backpack and we switch it from backpack to backpack depending on which one we are going to take that day. I never leave the house without it, but I never open it to look at it either. I shudder even seeing the outside. Just writing this right now makes me feel ridiculous but it is true-I am terrified of it.

Glucagon, is without a doubt, a life saving device for a Type 1 Diabetic. So why am I terrified of it?? This is what I have decided: I am not necessarily terrified of the kit itself (although, I will show you a picture-it is pretty intimidating) 😉 but the circumstances of having to use it. When my worst nightmares actually come true.

What is Glucagon?

Glucagon is a hormone (like insulin) that is naturally made in the pancreas. The pancreas makes glucagon when the body needs to put more sugar (glucose) in the blood to be used for energy. Glucagon raises the blood sugar by sending a signal to the liver and muscles (where your body naturally stores glucose) to release glucose. The difference between glucagon and insulin is that insulin lowers your blood glucose (sugar) by helping your body use the glucose in the blood for energy. Glucagon raises your blood glucose (sugar) by causing the liver and muscles to release stored glucose quickly. Though glucagon helps raise the level of glucose in the blood, it is not considered a sugar. (Source)

When should glucagon be used?

Glucagon can be injected using a special kit that can be purchased at a pharmacy but it needs a prescription. It should be used when a person with diabetes is having a severe low blood sugar reaction (hypoglycemia) and is unconscious or can’t swallow to take glucose on his own. (Source)

The last sentence is what gets me. You use Glucagon when they are unconscious and are about to have a seizure or go into Diabetic coma. I’m NOT okay with that! I will never be ready to see my BABY like that! I don’t think I will ever forget the day we learned about Glucagon and what it is used for. I forgot how to use it for a little while (I know how to use it now-no freaking out people) but I could never forget it’s reasoning for existing. In the midst of the whirlwind that was Con in the hospital when he was diagnosed with T1D, his endo RN (who is amazing by the way-but that will be another post someday) explained it to us-and I cried. Because this was happening to my BABY. ALL the training, information and advice about Type 1 Diabetes had been thrown at us for 4 days straight and this was one of the last tid bits of information. Already overwhelmed with the deluge of information of how to keep my son alive mixed with zero sleep-this information about Glucagon is what finally broke me. I think my brain shut down at that point. I couldn’t handle any more of what could potentially happen to my child because of this effing disease. So I hid. I pretended that this wasn’t going to happen to my child. I hid from what reminded me of what could go wrong instead of focusing on preventing it.

So, back to a few weeks ago-after 15 months of learning it’s usefulness-I opened the dreaded Glucagon Kit. Not because I needed to use it (thank God!) but because I was tired of hiding from it. The truth is-at any point Con may need this life saving device and what would happen if my fear of it got in the way and I couldn’t save his life? I could never live with myself after that. So, I decided to take action. I taught myself how to use it again. It wasn’t difficult at all. It turns out I do have some recall left and do remember the training I had on it. Moral of the story-don’t be afraid of something-face it head on. I am now no longer terrified of the Glucagon and what could possibly happen. I am prepared for the worst and what is most likely going to happen. And that is definitely one of the worst situations ever. 😦

This blog post helped a lot as well. She tells what can go terribly wrong on a perfectly normal day. She is an amazing Momma and I commend her for sharing her personal stories!

So, you want to see it?? Here it is:

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Terrifying isn’t it!? 😉 This seemingly insignificant kit can save my child’s life some day and I am ready. I am not about to let this little Ninja Turtle down. :p

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Also, if you ever want to know how to potentially save my child’s life (or any Type 1 Diabetic’s life for that matter)-let me know and I can train you on how to use the dreaded Glucagon too. 😀

The time I met the biggest celebrities in my life…

I took the boys to Disneyland yesterday (yes, by myself) and you know what? We had a BLAST! Even though it was the busiest I have seen it in a long time. Even though I had to correct Con for his high blood sugar (twice, and it still never came down) with thousands of people looking on while I drew up his medicine and injected him. Not to mention the times I had to prick his finger and check his blood sugar (also in front of thousands of people.) It was a great day!!! The weather was beautiful, the boys did what I told them to do, no fits, no fighting-just fun! If I didn’t already know it, I discovered that I have very well-behaved, smart kiddos! 🙂

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But the reason I am writing this post is to tell you some exciting news! Yesterday I met two of the most influential people in my life thus far! I have written about them previously in my blog here (https://iamapancreas.wordpress.com/2013/09/20/my-inspirations/) and here (https://iamapancreas.wordpress.com/2013/11/14/in-case-you-didnt-know/)

First, Luke and Jedi’s mom (I’m not sure if she wants me to put her name on blast on here 😉 so I won’t.) She is awesome! Completely awesome! She has done so much in the form of advocacy and awareness of Type 1 Diabetes (you can find most of it on her Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/SavingLuke?ref=br_tf) not to mention she has helped me personally by giving me guidance and great information in tough times. AND she is an amazing MOD (Mother of a Diabetic)! My friend sent me this picture almost a year ago and it has been such a blessing to have found this page!

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When Luke’s mom and I decided to plan a day to meet up, I showed Con some pictures of Luke and explained to him that he has Diabetes too and that we were going to meet him. I also told him that Luke was going to show him his insulin pump and that he doesn’t have to get “poked” all the time. Con was very excited! The next day-out of the blue while eating dinner-Con told his brother “I’m going to meet my other brother Luke! He has Diabetes too!” I thought about correcting him but thought why should I correct him? They have a bond that not many people understand, so in a weird way, they are kind of “brothers.” Superheros battling for the greatest gift of all-their lives! They don’t have to be wearing capes to have my vote on best Superheros ever! Which brings me to my next picture that I found around the same time a year ago:

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And cried and cried. Because it is SO true. I eventually was told that the beautiful girl in this picture is Stella from https://www.facebook.com/MajorTheDiabeticAlertDog. Who’s dad-Frank-is the other celebrity that I met yesterday!!! He is also amazing at spreading awareness and advocating for T1D. AND an amazing Dad! His Facebook page is awesome! And he can also be found at http://www.blackdogsrule.com <–look familiar?? That’s because  I have linked to him before! Because he has great insight and information. Seriously. I was star struck yesterday. 😉

It is so nice to have people like this in my world! I cannot wait to meet up with them again and hopefully this will be a start to our kids growing up together. 🙂

I have a few choice words for the Flu…

…But first of all-I would like to apologize for waiting 3 whole months to update this blog!!! Geez!! I didn’t realize it has been that long! It is a good thing though. That means that I was so busy that Diabetes kind of became “routine” or “normal” to us. Of course, that is not entirely true-we still have to deal with the daily finger pokes, injections, highs, lows, etc. but Con has been such a trooper about it! We made it through the crazy, busy holiday season and then…

WHAM!!!! The stomach FLU hit!!!

Poor Con. He threw up all night the night before Valentine’s Day. He had to miss his school party the next day and everything. (He is still upset that his brother received Valentine’s and he did not.) 😦 In his bed, in our bed and then eventually he made it to the bathroom. What a mess! It’s bad enough when a healthy child (or anyone for that matter) gets the flu, but it is an entirely other situation when a T1D gets the flu.

Here is brief list of things that a parent has to do when their child has the flu:

  • Keep them hydrated.
  • Let them rest.
  • Keep them away from others and out of school.
  • Make sure they have a bucket in their bed or maybe even a comfy bed by the toilet.
  • Drown everything you own in Lysol so-for the Love of God-no one else in the house gets sick.
  • Pray that it is over soon because your washer and dryer (not to mention your sanity) cannot take any more throw up riddled clothing/blanket items.

Here is the tightrope that a parent of a Type 1 Diabetic has to walk when their child has the flu:

  • EVERYTHING LISTED ABOVE AS WELL AS:
  • Check their blood sugar at least every hour because when they aren’t eating that means that aren’t getting any sugar in their blood; therefore, making their blood sugar drop to dangerous lows-which could lead to coma or even death. <–I don’t like saying that-but it is the truth.
  • Check for ketones as often as possible. This one is “fun.” They have to pee on a stick to see if they have ketones. Ketones pretty much always show up when someone is sick. I’m sure there are rare occasions when they don’t but I haven’t ran into it yet. (Look it up-horrible things!) The only way to get rid of ketones? Insulin and fluids. Remember-insulin is what brings blood sugar DOWN. So insulin+No carbs+throwing up=DISASTER. But you have to give it. Because if ketones stay too high for too long-that means DKA. And that is BAD. Hospital time. 😦 So you have to literally fill them with gaterade/powerade/juice to keep them hydrated and hopefully keep their blood sugar up. Which they promptly throw up after you give it.

Thank the good Lord-this flu only lasted 24 hours and then was done. Hallelujah! P.S. He did get the flu shot but obviously that didn’t help.

But the damage was already done. I’m sure everyone can relate to this-after you have been throwing up, you don’t want to eat. At all. In fact, you could even vow to never eat again if your throwing up was bad enough. Your stomach is sore and tender. Just the smell of food could make you dry heave (again.) So you don’t eat or eat as little as possible for at least a few days. Con doesn’t have this luxury. He has to eat to get his blood sugar back up and so I can keep up the insulin doses because his ketones were at the highest possible level and had been for at least 24 hours. I’m not entirely sure but I have been told that ketones are painful. I know that even a non-Diabetic can get ketones but I have never tested myself for them to know what they feel like. Whenever he tells me his stomach hurts, I always check him for ketones right away and sure enough-99% of the time he has them.

So, this past week has been what I affectionately call “Hell Week” for us. Con has been gradually eating more but up until today, it has not helped keep his blood sugar up. My very dear friend (that also has an adorable little T1D baby of her own) told me that her daughter’s endocrinologist told her that their little tummies can’t absorb much food after they have the flu so to watch for low blood sugars. 😦 And I believe it! I tried everything I could think of to get Con’s blood sugar back up! Sprite, chocolate chips, chocolate raisins, juice, powerade, crackers, just plain old bread! Nothing would faze it. And of course these are only the things that he was willing to eat. Protein is a HUGE deal in a T1D’s diet because it stabilizes blood sugar-he refused any kind of protein I would try to give him. 😦 Low blood sugar makes for a looonnggg night for us. Constantly waking up, checking him, correcting him with juice, waiting for the juice to kick in, re-checking, juice doesn’t affect is blood sugar at all, give him more juice and re-start cycle. Torture. I would rather like to see this happy, cheesy face again and SOON!

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Like I said though, he is finally eating today and we even have had some numbers in the 200s! <–typically that would be a little high but I will take it!!! I think he (we) are on the road to recovery and I cannot wait to see my little man happy again!!

Oh, and one more thing-

FUCK YOU FLU! YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE!!!!!!!! Sorry, I had to say it 😉

Let’s take a moment to be thankful…

I have been seeing a ton of thankful posts lately (because it’s November and Thanksgiving and all and I love them so keep them coming!) and I admit it-I am not thankful enough. Although I am so so SO thankful-it is NOT enough.

Yesterday was an extremely sad day in the “Diabetic World” of Facebook (part of the ones I follow at least.) One of the MODs (Mother of a Diabetic) that I follow (because she is AWESOME!) found out that her baby has Type 1 Diabetes. 😦  I say baby because it is true! Hope is only 13 months old.

Back story: Faith (the MOD I speak of’s oldest child) was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes 4 years ago. Her “Diversary” (the day she was diagnosed with T1D) was a couple days ago. She was only 9 months old when she was diagnosed. That is insane! When Con was in the hospital they told us that he was one of the youngest they have seen (he was 2 1/2!) And then when I started meeting other T1D families, I realized that 2 1/2 really isn’t that young at all! But 9 months old!?! 13 months old!!?!! What kind of cruel world is this!?

Well, now Faith’s sister, Hope, was also diagnosed with T1D at only 13 months old. She was diagnosed on the SAME DAY EXACTLY 4 YEARS AFTER FAITH WAS DIAGNOSED!! I can’t get my head around it. I cannot imagine the hurt and pain this family is going through right now. And yet, they are staying so positive! My heart and prayers go out to the Wilson family! If you want to follow their incredible story, you can find the beautiful Wilson family here: https://www.facebook.com/whereswuby

Sadly, they are not the only family out there that has multiple children plagued with T1D. The Gidner family (who can be found here: https://www.facebook.com/MomOfTwoType1Kids) and Meri with her 4 sons (THREE of which are ALL T1 Diabetic!) can be found here http://www.ourdiabeticlife.com/. And the list goes on! How is it possible that these families have to deal with not ONLY one child with T1D (which is incredibly hard enough) but TWO and even THREE!?! Baffles me.

I also write this post because, before I even read about Faith and Hope, I had contacted my oldest son’s doctor to get him tested (again) for T1D. He has been having weird symptoms lately-not eating, I swear he is loosing weight and I cringe every time he asks for water. I know I am super paranoid, and I even told his doctor that, but what kind of MOD would I be if I didn’t catch the signs of T1D in my other child!?

Conclusion-I tested him at home with one of Con’s ketone strips because I am crazy impatient (his ketone strips also have a side that tests how much sugar is in their urine. A “normal” person should NOT have sugar in their urine.) and it turned out completely negative. Whew! So, It turns out  I am completely crazy for now, we only have one child with T1D and that is enough for us! ❤

If you ever need a “Diabetic Dictionary” (because I use a lot of words you probably don’t understand) I have a post that references a really awesome website that has it all and you can find it here: https://iamapancreas.wordpress.com/2013/09/19/diabetes-terminology/

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In case you didn’t know…

Today is World Diabetes Day!! 😉

How could I not post on a day like today??

I found some pretty cool and interesting articles that I found on A Guardian Angel for Stella’s Facebook page which can be found here-https://www.facebook.com/MajorTheDiabeticAlertDog and thought I would share them as well! 🙂

First one:

Why is November 14th considered World Diabetes Day?? Wikipedia has some great answers that were very interesting!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/World_Diabetes_Day

Second one:

Why is the blue circle the symbol for Diabetes? Here you go!!

http://www.diabeteseducator.org/Blue_Circle.html

Third one:

What is a Diabetic Alert Dog (DAD)?? A Very cool, amazing, life-saving dog!!

http://www.myfoxphilly.com/story/23939819/diabetic-alert-dog-saves-lives

Ummm and how awesome is THIS!!?? (You have to get through the first minute or so of sadness and then it is awesome!!!)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OduJAtaNYgM

And finally-I have told you all before how much I love and admire Luke and his Mom over at https://www.facebook.com/SavingLuke

Well Luke’s mom made this video that I am in love with. It speaks volumes. It will make you cry but most importantly, it has so much great information that EVERYONE should know. It’s information that I wish I could shout off the rooftops! Take a minute-watch this, share and learn. ❤

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rLuLbmLnL20&feature=youtu.be

Thank you all for being so great!! I have seen so much blue and HOPE written on hands and just love today!! It is so wonderful to know that Con is not alone!!

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One Whole Year and a Celebration!

Sunday, November 10 marked one whole year that Con has been living with Diabetes.

I knew this day would come. I will never forget the date of 11/10/12, but it still took me off guard when the year anniversary rolled around. I struggled with what to do about it because I didn’t know if it was something to be celebrated or mourned? This disease that has my child in its grasp will never go away. It will never get better. He will never “out grow” it. It will never be controlled. So, why should we celebrate this horrible milestone in my child’s life?? Because we can’t let Diabetes win.

My whole attitude this last year has been to not let Diabetes win. To fight for him. Without modern medicine Con would have died last year. Today he is alive, happy and living a semi-normal life instead! So with that in mind-I decided we should celebrate!

Along with hospital trips, sleepless nights, Urgent care visits and ER visits we have conquered these things together:

  • River Trips
  • Beach Trips
  • Our annual Monster Truck vacation (We go see Monster Jam and spend the night in a hotel 🙂 )
  • Many, many sleepovers with friends
  • Park trips
  • Baseball games
  • His Birthday
  • His birthday party
  • Friend’s Birthday Parties
  • Pool Parties
  • Easter
  • Valentine’s Day
  • Christmas
  • Thanksgiving
  • New Years Eve
  • Halloween
  • Flu/Sicknesses
  • 1,460+ Shots
  • 1,825+ Finger pricks
  • 24 vials of insulin
  • SCHOOL!!!
  • School field trips
  • School parties
  • Bike riding, soccer playing, baseball
  • Our First JDRF Walk
  • Las Vegas
  • DISNEYLAND!!!!

 And so much more! Sounds like a “normal” kid’s life, right!?? Almost all of these things seemed impossible to me when he was laying in a hospital bed a year ago. With lots of planning and diligence-WE DID IT!!! And we will continue to do these things because he IS a normal kid! He just has to be monitored a little bit more. 😉

Along with all of his changes I’ve noticed that I have changed as well:

  • I never knew that I could possibly love my kids more than I did before.
  • I have never had a passion for anything like I do for a cure for my child.
  • I never knew my absolute need for control until I met something that I can’t control.
  • I never knew I had so many tears to shed (sadness, joy, relief, frustration, anger)<—I also have never experienced so many different emotions all at once.
  • We have met/shared experiences with so many wonderful people that we probably would never know if it weren’t for our children sharing this same disease.
  • Most importantly-I found a strength and confidence in myself that I never knew I had.

I am writing this to show our friends, family, strangers and eventually Connor what our first year with Diabetes has been like. Yes I said ‘Our” because this is not just him anymore.  We ALL have this. He is not alone and will never be alone. We will continue to not let Diabetes win!

Cheers to more celebrations to come!

Oh and one more thing-SUCK IT DIABETES!!!! ❤

 

The cold, hard, painful truth

This time exactly a year ago, I really started considering that my child was not okay. Something was wrong. He was not healthy. I knew there was something wrong for a few weeks prior to this, but it was THIS week that I REALLY knew I had to do something, and quick.

A lot of concerned parents have asked me what his signs were. What were the reasons why I was so concerned and took action? As November is National Diabetes Awareness Month (I still remember the doctor joking about it while Con was in the hospital-“Well, you will never forget that November is National Diabetes Awareness Month since he was diagnosed in November.”) it seems fitting that I should share his story with you now.

Attitude Change

Con was only 2 1/2 years old when he was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. So picture that. Remember back to when your kids/nieces/nephews/grandchildren/friend’s children were 2. Remember the whole “terrible twos” saying? Multiple that by 10 and you will understand how “terrible” Con’s temper tantrums and fits were. He would throw himself on the ground and cry for literally hours. There would be absolutely no consoling him and he would do it in response to the littlest, seemingly insignificant reason. “No Con, you can’t have another glass of water right now. You just chugged a whole glass!” <Throws himself on the ground and is inconsolable for easily an hour or until you gave in and gave him more water.> But again, it’s just the “terrible two” stage, right? He is just a little worse than our oldest was when he went through it. <–my justification for his actions.

Extreme thirst

I’m not sure I can explain this one with words. It was one of the “you have to see it to believe it” times but I will try. Con would literally chug water (any liquid we would give him, really, but we would usually just give him water.) We would joke that we could put him in a beer chugging contest and he would have no competition. That wasn’t the only strange part though.-he would get done chugging a glass of water, slam it down on the table and DEMAND more. (Remember the “terrible twos?”) Screaming for more. It got to the point where water was a “treat” for him. “Con, eat that chicken nugget and I will give you more water.” <Eats the chicken nugget and chugs his next glass of water, slams it down and demands more.> Well, it has been hot lately, it is understandable that he would want water. <–We had an excuse for everything when really, we should have known something was wrong.

Frequent Urination

Con was fully potty trained in June of last year. No accidents, at all. October/November came around and he was peeing his pants every ten minutes. He would go to the bathroom, come back out and sit on the couch to watch tv and I would check on him ten minutes later and his pants were completely soaked through. Must be all the water he has been drinking lately.

Sudden Vision Changes

Con would tell us randomly that “his eyes hurt.” He would rub them and cry. I had no excuse for this. This is one of the signs that I really started paying attention to.

Lethargy, Vomitting

The day before I finally emailed his doctor to say that something was wrong, he was at my mom’s house while I was working. She called to tell me that she thought he had the flu because he had been laying on the couch all day and just threw up. I told her to keep an eye on him and I would come get him. I will never forget the way he looked lying on her couch. I know why he looked so bad-he was dying. His body was giving up on itself. All the water drinking, urinating and vomiting was his little body’s way of getting rid of the sugar that was in his blood. But that would never work. He needed the insulin, that his body was not producing anymore, to keep living. I still didn’t know that yet though. So, of course, I did what probably most parents would have done. I googled his symptoms and found that they all pointed to Type 1 Diabetes. I was in denial. This can’t happen to MY child. Nope, these kind of things happen to OTHER people’s children, but NOT MINE! I emailed his doctor that I was concerned about his symptoms and that I thought it might be T1D. She wrote me back and said “I will put in an order for a urine test so we can rule that out.” She later apologized to me for doubting me.

Of course we got angry at him for all these things. And I wish more than almost anything but taking Diabetes away from him that I could take that anger back. That is probably one of the lowest, feeling guilty moments of my life. I don’t know if that guilt will ever really go away. He was in pain, he needed us to understand what he was going through and we just got angry with him for things that he could not and still cannot control. I will spend the rest of my life making up it up to him and that is another reason why I can’t stop.  I can’t stop writing, advocating and educating as much as I possibly can. I can’t stop trying to make people understand. To try to make everyone see that he didn’t do this to himself, he didn’t ask for this.

T1D is commonly misdiagnosed as the flu. Mostly children but even adults (Diabetes is not discriminatory-it can happen to anyone at any age. Even Type 1 which used to be considered Juvenile Diabetes) have been sent home from doctor’s offices, hospitals, etc. as having the flu when really they are in DKA and need insulin to survive. Some cases these people die when they don’t have to.

The hospital told us that we actually caught it early in Con. That he had had T1D for about 3 months prior to being diagnosed but since we were essentially only giving him water, his body was able to flush out the ketones and sugar so he actually never went into DKA. Which is glorious news and warranted us some very confused looks from the doctors and nurses at the hospital. We were asked so many times how we caught it so fast. My response-“he could have still died. We did not catch it fast enough.” But really, it is because I paid attention, I had the proverbial Motherly Instinct that my child was not okay and I took action.

Please know the signs. If you have ANY concerns-tell your doctor, your child’s doctor, anyone who can give you or your child a simple urine test. That’s all. Just pee in a cup. it took our doctor a few hours to tell us that Con needed to go tot the hospital but in some instances they can tell you instantly. (We had this done with our oldest just as a precaution.)

I get an average of 40 views on each blog post. If even half that number were to share this post on their Facebook page and they had 100 friends-that would mean that 2,000 people would see the signs of T1D and could potentially catch it in themselves or someone they know before it is too late. That’s all I ask. Please share the knowledge. You won’t win anything, you won’t be entered into any drawing but it doesn’t hurt anyone and it doesn’t cost anything. It might annoy your friends a little but you know what? You could potentially save a life too. Wouldn’t that be a great feeling!??

Happy National Diabetes Awareness Month!!! Please let me know if you have ANY questions! I would LOVE to answer them! ❤

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